The Sweetest Taboo

I wrote this sometime ago (around 2008).... yet today it is oh so relevant!!

So inclined are our spirits 
Words are the playing cards of our raw emotions 
Subtly, unaware to each other 
The grace in which our aura is entwined 
Simulates sizzling scenes of suppositions 

Simple idiosyncrasies otherwise flouted 
Is now forefront in my mind 
Oblivious to the route my wanderlust and imaginative psyche embarks 
Before I know it...I'm tracing your eyes, the slender of your nose, the thick and thin of your lips 
How those soulful expressions are rendered effortlessly along that golden face 

Have you ever felt it? That inexplicable bout of energy permeating through our conversations 
Strained against the more than few reasons why we shouldn't 
Do you stop it? A light and feathered touch now arouses the deepest sensation of my imagination 
And an ensuing battle begins- morality versus desirability the latter being the leading contender 
My thoughts are now replaced with the many fantasies of wreaking havoc on that sensuous temple 

Slowly I undress you, removing the restrictive loins of resistance between us 
I cradle the picturesque frame of your face 
As my free hands saunters blissfully along the mahogany contours of your body 
Igniting a degree of ethereal flames far ill-equipped of my furnace's capabilities 
I revel in this new found glory, I am not ashamed! 

Clinging to every waking moment of this insatiable reverie 
We mutually satisfy our curious yearnings 
Feverishly spent our bodies reluctantly asunder 
I watch you in admiration, with such exquisite technique 
Inch by excruciating inch the loins of resistance returning 

Minute by minute the time relapses 
Takes us to our prior exploratory encounter 
Our kinetic energy reduced to sparks of interest 
I raise up 
My mind laced with mysticism, not because it’s over 

Because I've started all over again, indulging in the sweetest taboo 

Jazuri J

The Bae's Privacy....Invade or not to Invade??

In a relationship (platonic/intimate), not all secrets are created equal as such there are implied layers of 'trust' to unravel or re-wrap depending on the situation that arises.

When is okay to snoop?? 

Is it okay to look but don't talk?? 

If devices are left careless, is it negligence on the owner's part??

If we argue can I say these things that I now know and pretend that I am 'gifted' with the all seeing eye??

These are legitimate questions and you would be surprised at some of the responses!!! Privacy & Trust are the proverbial 'lock and key' as they do walk hand in hand and cannot be separated...no trust no privacy it is as simple as ABC.

I am from the school of 'look but don't talk....too much' lol! I firmly believe it is not the knowledge that makes you powerful but the use of such knowledge. There must be a reason why the trust has to be violated, yes the reasoning that led to snooping (even if it is insecurity...that would be my trust issues right??) that would cause one to seek out this 'enlightening' information. The worse thing you can do to me is to 'protect me' from the truth.... I want to know EVERYTHING and ANYTHING that may cause any spokes in the relationship wheel to bend.

Social media today have only added the paranoia effect of invasion of privacy, we can now look at pictures, status, mutual friends, likes & comments and deduce a mountain of truths or half truths depending on the rose coloured water you are drinking from...

Scenario #1
You and your bae have been together for a while (over a year) and you know that fidelity may be an issue, where they are concerned, however you are given every indication that you are THE ONE. An unsuspecting situation arises that provides you with access to incriminating evidence (you found conversations, pictures etc). Do you confront? Or do you let sleeping dogs lie?

The invasion is usually perpetrated 80% of the time by women (this is society's perception). I do however believe men are just as high in the percentile, however it is not a behaviour welcomed by the boys club, if you can get more than one girl why stress over the one?? Right??? Can any of the 'real gyalis' please confirm or deny for me!!

Invasion of privacy requires some characteristics though....in order to find the 'hidden' information, evidence etc one would need to be; a hacker (to get by the many passwords etc), a linguistic decoder (interpret code words etc), a forensic specialist (to be able to leave the crime scene as it were), and finally a lawyer (to get you to incriminate yourself under cross examination). Role playing has never been sweeter!! 

The truth is, if you cannot handle what you are bound to be looking for, (no snooper goes looking for GOOD news) then DO NOT do it, snooping takes dedication and discipline (self control). I suggest to every want-to-be snooper, that you read the Art of War first - you may just need Sun Tzu after all!

Until next time.....Snoop responsibly!!!

Many thanks to you all who continue to encourage the AZ.U.R. posts!! More Love!!

My Heart Beat...An Unsung Song

Maybe there could have been another way to do this... maybe even in another space.

However there is much more emotion at the tip of my fingers fueled only by the pain and joy that this 'situation' could ever bring.

I want to lay it all out, as if this were a studio and I laid it all on the track - at least this would make up for the courage that I lacked... 

That night, early morning when words couldn't find me, the only solace that came my way was the incessant pain, reminder of the hurt that I may have caused, finally it has bind me

Years have gone by, and there are countless emotions, stories and other ways we bonded

Somehow in the back of my mind...I thought, I felt, there was still a future

Even when I see you moving...becoming a shadow in my rearview mirror

On the sidelines I was the one who became the cheerleader, for your brighter future

How could I state that I was devastated, emasculated, that you could never look to me as your provider

Scratch that we got past that... and mended wounds became yet another scar and lingering feelings

The short-lived mini-series we re-started living, was just a predecessor to the earthquake I would be feeling 12am that morning

How could it be suggested that the bed I laid in, would be the very same one I'd hold in disdain

How could it be normal to 'watch' while every fiber of my being, wants to be in that spot, that same spot from which you have replaced me

They say the journey of a thousand miles begins with one step...my one step took me 3.5miles

No cardio workout has ever made me produce that much sweat...blood...let us not talk about the tears that flowed

With every last drop I felt my heart growing cold yet still to a non-existent future I still hold

This is the story that remains untold.....

SCANDAL and I

"You don't get to run. You're a gladiator. Gladiators don't run. They fight. They slay dragons. The wipe off the blood. They stitch up their wounds, and they live to fight another day. You don't get to run." - Olivia Pope

Would I consider myself a 'fanatic' no...but Shonda Rimes has done a fantastic job getting people glued to their televisions on a Thursday night including me however I am tuned in for a whole different reason... I think

 

Brief Synopsis of the series...

"Scandal is an American political thriller television series starring Kerry Washington. Created by Shonda Rhimes, it debuted on ABC on April 5, 2012.[1] Kerry Washington's character, Olivia Pope, is partially based on former George H.W. Bush administration press aide Judy Smith, who serves as a co-executive producer.[2] The show takes place in Washington, D.C. and focuses on Olivia Pope's crisis management firm, Olivia Pope & Associates, and its staff, as well as staff at the White House" – Wikipedia.com

 

This character named Olivia Pope is amazing beyond natural belief... I sincerely wish to meet the actual person from whom this 'star' was birthed. Olivia is the best at what she does...solving people's 'image' problem which may or may not be misconstrued as 'shielding the ugly elite' in the interest of the public and morale fiber of the republic. That is her job, now she as a person is nothing short of a kaleidoscope of different egos- she wants the picket fence dream, she wants the brass balls, and she also craves forbidden love- that is just my opinion.

How she manages to wear the mask that hides all these insecurities, so well at that; immaculately dressed, poised and eloquently spoken is intriguing to say the least. How many of us do that? Put on the 'Brave Face' mostly women I suppose since we are the emotional ones.

Her family is as dysfunctional as it gets - her father led B613, a covert outfit which can be considered the mastermind of all things America. Her mother is a terrorist who after umpteen years in secret lockup (by her dad) was freed by Olivia (before she knew she was a terrorist).

Her love life ... I think this is what they sell the show entirely on... the passion between her and the President and the powerful men who have tried (and succeeded) in getting a morsel of her emotional being (right Jake!). This woman plays a powerful mistress... how many wives would acknowledge, and cannot do a thing about it, a third party in their marriage and even call on said mistress to 'fix' her husband because he only listens to you. WOW!

Her game face is to die for!! The utter confidence and strength she exudes in one to revere. This is someone you ought not to mess with! Whether the fact that she has powerful friends and families is beyond the point that just adds to the reality of how she is able to do what she does so well.

Everyone has baggage, demons, skeletons; they are all the same just different degrees of sin. Throughout it all the lions rise as they are the ones who play through the pain. No matter what...Get up, dress up, show up and give it all you have got. They say art imitate life and this is indeed a work of art.

Some Scandal Quotes to inspire you... The Gladiator in YOU!
Find the rest @ http://www.tvfanatic.com/quotes/shows/scandal/

You can't change the choice you made, all you can do is not let it ruin you.

Olivia


He can talk all he wants about a regular life. Some men aren't meant to be happy. They're meant to be great.
Cyrus

Olivia: I don't want normal, and easy, and simple. I want..

Edison: What? What do you want, Olivia?

Olivia: I want painful, difficult, devastating, life-changing, extraordinary love. Don't you want that, too?
Edison: Love is not supposed to be painful or devastating. Love isn't supposed to hurt, Liv.

I am not a toy that you can play with when you're bored or lonely or horny. I am not the girl the guy gets at the end of the movie. I am not a fantasy. If you want me, earn me! Until then, we are done.

Olivia

[to Fitz] Many a man has been undone by jealousy.

Cyrus


You thought the two of you were partners. You thought the problems in your marriage were solvable. You thought 'for better or worse' meant something. You thought no matter what he'd be faithful. Nancy, right now, you are angry, right now you feel betrayed, but here's the thing. You are his partner. You are his wife. Some mistress doesn't change that. He made a mistake. You have to forgive him for it. You weren't wrong about him. You were just stronger than he was. And he is not a monster. He's the man you fell in love with. You have to bury the man that you married. Somewhere in all the cheating, Nancy, is the man that you married. Be his wife, right to the end. Be his wife.
Mellie
 
 He needs you, Olivia. He is tired and broken and it isn't the job. It's doing the job without you. He's not alive when you're not here. He can't breathe when you're not here. He doesn't have the will to run much less win when you're not here because you, you're everything to him, Liv. He needs you, so I need you to come back. Come back to us.
Mellie

[to Olivia] You're skipping around in a field full of bombs and mistaking them for daisies.

Rowan Pope

How to be friends with your Ex!

There is a way to be platonic, actually several, with a former lover, husband, wife, or even 'situation' this is just a guide from personal and collectively shared views.  

Do not have sex with your Ex!
This is an old cliche but it is very much relevant. The moment you go back in that bed all bets are off. Old firesticks do ketch, and you would have given every future partner the reason not to trust either of you and satisfy the worldwide belief that being friends with an ex is next to impossible.

 Bury your relationship.
If you have to put a picture in a box and throw dirt on it. Do it. As long as you recognize this was in the past and there is no interest for a future photo op. If the ending was not good then mourn that shit and move the hell on! If the circumstances are unforgiving then friends is not an option.

Let go of the possessiveness...he/she/it is mine
People are not assets. Unless this is a business relationship in the form of a merger then nobody is yours. Get over the child-like behaviour when you don't want to share your favourite snack. Someone else will have what was yours, so will the next person after, and after that...this breeds jealousy a trait not warranted for your current status at the moment   Be prepared to hear some shit that happened either just before, during or right after your relationship. Get over this....very quickly if you want to have honest and open conversations with each other. Take your ego out of it unless you don't only want friendship.  

Be wary of the trifling ass undercover lovers
 All the Joe and Jane Grind's are going to have more confidence now and show their true colours. Try to keep your cool and be thankful they are still cowards who had to wait till game over to start playing.  

Keep it 100! All the time or as much as you can, even more than when you were a couple As an ex you have the potential to be the best friend they never had...be responsible with this position, give your opinions in a way that fosters back and forth discussions. Constructive criticism works only if you know what it is, and how to do it. Go to Google.  

Know when to stand back...and allow the future to set in, even if you don't like it This requires maturity to differentiate between helping and facilitating. Help because you want to and not because you feel obligated. Be self confident enough to sit in the back...way back if needs be, knowing if it were the back row of church, this still does not mean your blessings will be any less.

Love unconditionally....this is the simplest but hardest thing to do but if you are genuine and your intentions honourable, if you master this everything falls into place.

I Chose You...I C U

Today is one of those days of reflection..... Have you ever had someone in your life, for whatever reason they are now absent, and you have absolutely no regret of them no longer being a part of it?

Welcome to the rantings of JaZuri...Do enjoy and do come back for more!


I Chose U (I C U)
When I needed an escape.. I C U
When my world began to unravel.. I C U
When my dreams started to invade my reality.. I C U
When what we had caused me to reject everything I have ever known... I still chose you

The sacrifice made time and time again because.. I C U
The many nights we have both pondered, probably even asked ourselves 'why have I Chosen U'
Despite the confusion, feeling subdued by you was the only solution
Else the cliff would have begged me to fall in, and with you
Being with you and the ways I have felt for you, did nothing but re-enforce why I C U

As bittersweet as it felt, as oblivious to the present 'it' became.. I C U
Slowly the frustrated pains reared their heads in the shadows,
And it was no longer a choice, but now a battle, so I fought for you
It had to make sense I told myself, turning worlds upside down was not a pretense so... I C U

I don't live with regrets, so you could never be a mistake
What we shared will permanently occupy the cavities of my membrane
Unknown to us is the reason why I C U, but we now know it had been history in the making

The magnitude of those feelings will only force me to stay
And this is a place I cannot grow old in,  cannot be whole in
Sometimes to rebuild you have to destroy, or take the very existence of what is so strong
The history that we both perpetuate doesn't allow you to carry forth your dynamic vision for tomorrow
And for that reason I C U... but now is the time. I have to love me more so this is where I Choose Me.

"Chose- The Past Tense of choose; which is to select from a number of possibilities, or pick by preference."

Avicii - Addicted To You (Lyric Video) (+playlist)

 This is worth 2 mins + of my time. Don't click if you hate reading.....think creative subtitles!

All things GanJA... & Rastafari Business

 Approximately 5 days ago.... I had the pleasure of attending a 'Cannabis Stakeholders Forum' held at the UWI Mona Campus. This was the most heartening and disturbingly provocative (all at the same time) forum, meeting, therapy session... That I have ever seen. Since we are all on the legalization-of-weed 'band wagon' trail it is only fair that I give my two cents to the world wide web, which is directed to you my fellow reader(s).
I am a self proclaimed, non commercialized, SILENT GANJA ACTIVIST...dwl!! Yes if you know me...for those of you who have gone beyond my pseudo name (writing name) by now and have put the pieces of the puzzle together, I love me my weed... I smoke it, eat it, use the by products like lip gloss, soap and even body splash. However until that forum I have never felt the need to go to the origin of my beloved ganja, until I saw the pain and discomfort within the Rastafarian community, who were also present... I say that to say this - There is no way JA can holistically benefit from this 'medicinal' boom until the sacrilegious aspect to this community is properly addressed. Even though I am not in total agreement of airing dirty laundry in a public setting, kudos must be given to the organizers...they put together a well thought out presentation and included some powerful/influential people of our nation and beyond the shores to incite and stimulate deep rooted conversations, around the topic and how Jamaica can move forward if this is a step to take for the elevation of economic prevail especially against the beasts like IMF etc. Without going scientifically into the chemical components and types of 'marijuana' plants available as a result of lab cultivation...it can be emphatically stated that JA has the best 'balanced' strain in the world! YES I SAID IT!

But let us spin 180 degrees for a bit away from 'medicinal & commercial' activities and go deep....imagine yourself as devout Rastafarian, over the years you have been told that your spiritual symbol is illegal, your fellow brethrens and elders may have been persecuted for this plant over the years, and even still today present day. You have waged war against Babylon and the disrespect of your religious customs and practices in relations to this plant. NOW come back today 2014 decades later... you are now being told that YOUR religious pain is the GREEN GOLD of the free world. So now the Babylonians not only took away your pride and freedom, in most cases, but here you are 'allowed' to get it back in a 'bottle' and you may or may not need a medical prescription to get what is naturally yours!!! Now this is ludacris!!! Had I still maintained Rastafari in my life I would be most upset as well!!! Hear is my recommendation to all stakeholders involved in this process, in the interest of business and social development, allow the business people to do what they do best - make money!! Give Rastafarians the ultimate power of social development by allowing them to be the knowledge hub of ALL THINKGS GANJA...a foundation, laboratory, archives whatever is needed to trace the origins and foster unbiased education.. who else can tell us more about ganja than Rastafari?

Now to add insult to injury, we are back to the business aspect of this thing here...the main reason JA cannot sit in the ganja airplane and take off, is because of a UN convention signed some eons ago!! Tell me where to jump off into the insanity pool too! If the US of mighty A can disobey their own federal government why is JA so afraid? Do we need to go back to plantations and revolutions??? This is modern day revolution!! Get up off your red taped asses and do something about the state of OUR affairs. Be leaders! Be innovators! Be fearless!

To the influential people ...If you need an ambassador email me!!! I am ready and willing!! Let us get this $$$ for the future of our country as ganja will never plateau like most other products. This is a way of life!

"On 31 July 2013, the Uruguayan House of Representatives approved a bill to legalize the production, distribution, sale, and consumption of marijuana by a vote of 50 to 46. The bill heads next to the Senate, where the left-leaning majority coalition, the Broad Front, holds a comfortable majority and is expected to pass the bill. The bill will then be presented to President José Mujica, also of the Broad Front coalition, who has supported legalization since June 2012. Relating this vote to the 2012 legalization of marijuana by the U.S. states Colorado and Washington, John Walsh, drug policy expert of the Washington office, stated that "Uruguay's timing is right" Because of last year’s Colorado and Washington State votes to legalize, the U.S. government is in no position to browbeat Uruguay or others who may follow" - excerpt from Wikipedia


I could go on and on about more ganja related stuff but let me stop right here right now and leave you with some links...

Ganja Facts
* Ganja pre-dates the 3rd millennium (Bronze Age)
* Outlawed in JA in 1913, whilst we were still, and many may argue remain, a British colony
* The name itself Ganja is said to be of Sanskrit origin
* Ganja plant is known as cannabis Sativa
* CBD:THC ratio speaks to the potency of the strain...more CBD is good as THC is deemed the psychosis stimulant
* Origin of ganja by country: Egypt-China -India-North Africa- Europe-Western hemisphere

Ganja links to edify your brain or just entertain;

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cannabis_(drug)
http://www.concept420.com/information/marijuana-timeline-history/
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File:Killerdrug.jpg
http://www.globalpost.com/dispatch/news/regions/americas/120621/uruguay-marijuana-legalization-government-pot-dealer-drug-war

Email me allthingsganja@outlook.com or check out the dedicated blog @ www.allthingsganja.wordpress.com

2014 & Beyond...Speaking OUT

By this time all the new resolution crap have died out.... For that we have to give thanks, Every year on the 31st day of December people expect to go to sleep and wake up born a new creation, which is all a figment of their imagination.

Big ups to those people who have a YEARLY PLAN and stick to it! Yes there are differences between PLANS and RESOLUTIONS and we can call these discipline, determination amongst other strong willed traits.

My expectations for each new year have far diminished from various top ten lists (usually of unfinished roll over tasks from previous years) to just one thing...BEING ALIVE! What I choose to do with that gift will be my PURPOSE fulfilled!

This is one of the vehicles to achieve that feat (what reaches quicker than www.com world?) and this one way of doing something new!! Speaking out about all the things that affect, impact or even entertain me! If I manage to effect some emotion from you (yes reader I am talking to you) then my job is done. The fact you keep coming back is greatly appreciated and I strive to continue to whet your sensory appetite!!

Yoga & Red Wine will be my best friends for now as I get the spirit in tune for this task at hand! Enticing an audience is pretty easy...many one hit wonders can attest to this, ("My Boy Lollipop") keeping that same audience with you and creating loyalty is the hardest thing celebrities any public figure can do! Ask the 'crazy celebrities' whose PR ratings skyrocket each time something fateful happens.... Remember peeps these words are my therapy, glad you're still in the session!!

 So here is my ultimate standardized list... If you take this to any year, any month, any number of weeks then you will have no problems....so what if I borrowed it! thanks GOOGLE! Why re-invent the wheel?? When someone already racked their brains and figured this out!

See! Easy like 1..2..3..... DEAD WRONG the simplest things can take the hardest work, because you have no idea how effortless it can be until you have mastered the art. Let us do this together!! you write these down, take some time if you must and really think about these. Make them your daily mantra!! Say this in front of a mirror or  video yourself #selfie!! (you must have a front facing camera to expertly do this!) But on the real peeps, try this one! you have failed at the other attempts before so one more frog won't kill you right?

Until we meet again my cyber friends!! Peace love and unity! Hit me up at jazurij@gmail.com and let me know how this turns out for you!

ONE LOVE! MY WISH FOR ALL MY READERS!!